I had a horrible time getting to sleep last night. I don't usually have trouble sleeping. I rarely suffer from insomnia and it doesn't usually take more than 15 minutes to fall asleep. But last night, I couldn't stop thinking about this kid in my kids' school. A nine-year-old boy, 3rd grader and former classmate of j who was just diagnosed with leukemia. More specifically, Precursor-B Acute Lymphocytic Leukemia. He's already been admitted to the hospital and is undergoing chemo. There's hope he'll be going home in the next day or two. Since late last week he's undergone a myriad of blood tests, IVs, spinal taps and oral medications. It sounds like a blood transfusion is scheduled. The ordeal sounds horrible for him, his parents, his younger brother, his extended family and friends. And this is only the beginning. I've read enough novels, seen enough movies, about sick kids and their families to know this is a scary, frustrating and miserable ordeal for all of them.

Now, I don't really know this kid or his family all that well. We do move in the same circles in the same school community. Almost everyone at school knows, or at least knows of, this kid. He's got a big personality. But, my kids aren't really friends with him or his brother. I didn't even really know his dad's name until I started reading his blog - just started since the diagnosis and admission to the hospital.

So, why couldn't I sleep last night? Maybe it's because I have kids more-or-less the same ages as this kid and his brother. Maybe I can somehow imagine our family being there instead of them. Or maybe it's just 'cuz the kids are classmates or that in my volunteering at school, this kid has always seemed to make his presence known whether in the classroom, on the playground or at various other school events. Maybe it's because the teacher at school whom I love most is as much in love with this kid as she is with j&m. I don't know what it is, but it feels like all those things and so much more. Maybe it's just some kind of thing parents have that seems to connect them when someone's - anyone's - kid is sick. I don't know...

But I do know that my heart goes out to this kid and his family. That I'm praying for them all as well as the medical staff who are caring for him. That I'm not going to be able to stop thinking about him for quite some time.

Let's try this again, shall we?
So, about a month or so ago I was motivated to start writing again. I had all kinds of plans of chronicling the process of creating a home yoga practice, writing about some specific yoga-related topics, jotting down what I recalled from the recent S-I workshop I attended, etc, etc. And, true to form, my great ideas have come to mind and then fallen away without a word being written. As each idea occurred and was then abandoned, I think I became a little overwhelmed with everything I wanted to write about and so I wrote about nothing.

Well, I think it's time to try again. I've decided to stop Facebooking for Lent which will probably mean no Twittering as well, so theoretically, I'll have the time. Now, I just have to jot down a list of the ideas that came up and hopefully I'll check them off as I post. So, here's the list:

Updates, observances of my home yoga practice

The core of the body - what it is and how to keep it strong

S-I Workshop

Nikki's 28-day seated meditation challenge

Let's see what happens.

Well, so much for that
Yesterday I attended my regular Tuesday class with Theresa and didn't do any other yoga practice. After class I had to make a trip to Costco, then meet up with Julie and Anna for our semi-regular knitting and gab session. We hadn't gotten together since before winter break, so I didn't want to miss it. So, yesterday there was no at-home practice. I suspect, at least for starters, my classes with Theresa will be all the yoga I do on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
When I got up this morning, I remembered that I was going to use some "pre-configured" practices go get me started. The plan was to use Living Your Yoga by Judith Lasater for this purpose. I hadn't done this ahead of time, so I scrambled to find a plan for today's practice. I'm more than a little embarrassed to admit I got it wrong - Living Your Yoga doesn't have suggested poses for various asana practices. It contains topics such as Discipline, Letting Go and Service and contains suggested meditation practices. Meditation is definitely something I'd like to add to my daily yoga practice (and something I could probably use in my daily life!) but the physical asanas is where I intended to start. So, now I have to go back to the drawing board. I'll peruse my other books and my notes from class and come up with a yoga practice to start with. In the meantime, I guess I'll just do a few down dogs, a couple of standing lateral poses and a bridge or two and call it good.

Yoga in Practice
I just finished my first at-home yoga practice of 2010. In fact, it's the first at-home practice I've done in quite some time. While I was studying to be a yoga teacher last year, my teachers told us that you can't teach what you don't do. And the way you do is not only to attend yoga classes, but to create an at-home practice. Well, it was tough, but I was able to add an at-home element to my days when yoga was pretty much all I was concentrating on. But kids and schedules and injuries and other things conspired against me and whatever at-home practice I had fell by the wayside. In the early Spring I had a knee injury that sidelined my running, but I managed to start that up again over the Summer and I have more or less kept with that. Now it's time to rejuvenate my at-home yoga practice. In addition to my need to do yoga more often just for myself, I still want to be a yoga teacher. I've got my 200-hour certification, I'm teaching a kids' yoga class after school at my kids' school, but I want to do more. And, I know, I have to start with me. I've realized I can't preach what I don't practice. I'll never be a good yoga teacher if I don't practice, practice, practice. I will not regain the confidence I had at the end of the 200-hour program if I stick with my 2-, sometimes 3-, day a week practice with my teacher. I have to become my own teacher and then I'll be ready to teach others.

So, today is day one. I don't know how tomorrow or this week will go. All I know is that I need to take that next step. I've been thinking about how to develop a practice and I think I'm going to start with Judith Lasater's book "Living Your Yoga". Between a prescribed list of asanas and the preps I learned in my classes I hope this will be a good place to start growing my practice.

Another lame quiz entry

You Are Ceramics

You are open to the world and it's possibilities. You are able to start something without knowing how it will end.

You trust your intuition above everything else. Going with your gut often works out.

You believe that every day objects can and should be art.

The best art allows ordinary life to be more stylish and beautiful.

What Herb Are You?
Haven't posted in a while and whaddaya know, another quiz!

You Are Rosemary

You are stable and grounded. You may take a slow, steady approach to life, but you're a survivor.

You are an intellectual and very rational. You can see things from a logical, detached viewpoint.

You are successful but not particularly ambitious. You have a way of letting success come to you.

You tend to be a bit understated and modest. You let your accomplishments speak for themselves.

Blueberry Pancakes Mmm...

You Are Blueberry Pancakes

You prefer flavorful, fresh foods that are well seasoned.

You shy away from anything plain or overcooked.

It's not likely someone would find a lot of cheap convenience foods in your kitchen.

Instead, someone might find a wide array of spices, herbs, and flavorings.

Precious Metal?

You Are Silver

You are a flexible person. Being open to opportunities in life has served you well.

You are very polished and sophisticated. You're probably in a higher class than you were born into.

You are naturally popular and quite influential. You are a bit of a trend starter among people you know.

And while you are well liked, you don't let it go to your head. You remain contemplative and wise.

Mafia Name

Your Mafia Name Is Isabella "The Bull" Magaddino

Leave the gun. Take the cannoli.

What Board Game are You?

You Are Checkers

You are very logical and rational. You are able to understand what is and isn't a factor.

You're able to compartmentalize and focus on the essentials.

You appreciate simplicity. You can see the layers of complexity and beauty in anything.

You are also playful and good natured. You don't take life too seriously!


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